Tuesday, September 26, 2006

today was the most exhilarating day of my life.
i dont know why too but i could feel the adrenaline rush.
it was fantastic seeing a different side of ppl in class i never knew.
the talks today were hilarious.
i always thought that there was so much more to life than being pretty, dolling up and trying so hard to being at fashion's edge.
but i guess things advanced to a different level today.
i love dressing up now!

I dont really know what it means to be sixteen.
i guess that sees the end of smuggling oneself into cinemas for NC16 pictures.
There's just always more than one wants.
Then i will say, 16's not enough, I want to watch M18 movies.
Then when i finally reach 18 , I will lament, I want to watch R21. When will I be 21?
You see, humans can never get enough of anything.
They woulnt want to settle for less than what the world offers.

Being 16 means a fashion revoultion.
It means growing out of berms and flip-flops .
It means growing 2 cm taller!
It means still being mummy's girl:(
I used to languidh for all the things a teenager ones.
but right now, i really dont need anything anymore.
Feeling the love today at the dinner was heartwarming.
JLC Quoted: I HAVE THE BEST D___ FAMILY IN THE WORLD!
that sounds right.
I guess I was always so threathened when things were going alright,
when everything in my life was neatly arranged like books on shelves.
I was so worried that all these fortune would one day slip out of my hands.
Now that I see that anything , everything is smooth-sailing, i feel blessed, yet at the same time, fearful that this might just be a dream.
What is my birthday wish this year?
I dont want Ritz dinners, the Hollister tees, iPod Nano, Dmobo phone.
I really dont have ,dont need, dont want and never ever wished to possess all these tangible things.
I am happy with the the joy of having people ard me. So I now say when I am sixteen,
Welcome to God's World.
This is where He only matters , and not what my desires or plans there may be.
It is only where I forget my world that was once treasured by an over-achiever, an imperfect being.
I know I only can be complete in Him. Sixteen years of my life has been like a roller-coaster,topsy-turvy yet rewarding .
There was once that I got so sick of loving others that I simply quit.
I have always wanted to just wash my hands of everything else in this wrold because they are wearing me out, severing me piece by piece.
It was inexorably painful having fallen out with friends, cried over raised hopes which inevitably led to failed expectations.

I just want to be simple now.

Thank you for making my birthday a memorable one.
Madeline: Thank you for the whale. I appreciate your thoughtfulness . You dont know how happy was I to have received your wishes. I treasure them a lot. I do:)

LYNETTE: I love the sweets. DO u know that i have been searching for that card. You read my mind like a book though we only started talking not a while ago. I dont know why but I always feel like screaming my lungs out when I see you. You just make me so happy with your hilarious words and actions. Honestly , I was dumbfounded when WX/Mad passed me the present! THe part abt ur heart beating so fast caused me to fall on my heels!Anyway, thank you my dear:)

huifang + jiayi: Thanks for ur wishes. I felt so insulted when you said i was santa claus carrying the Isetan BAGS. HEy, i wasnt giving out presents ok! anw, thanks hf for always listening to my nonsense and those hours on the phone :)

RT: I love the card. It says " MIRROR MIRROR ON THE WALL <>
Whatever, i was laughing like crap! thank you for always cracking such silly jokes. They add colour to my already hyper and crazy life!

JESS: I will hug the turtle tonight, dont worry! :) please stay happy always.

Goodnight all.
love always , amanda

amandy thought hard on 6:49 AM.