Wednesday, March 22, 2006

campfire was fine.
just that i was feeling so stressed up.
and my mood's so bad these days.
guess rachel must be really mad.
sorry darling.
im so devoid of emotions now.
and im not upset nor angry anymore.
im just numb.
went back with jess.
and i had nothing to say.
on the train.
i find myself becoming so silent nowadays.
silent in loving.
but when i have made a decision , i shouldnt rock back and
forth anymore.
i dont know why but everything went wrong today.
i didnt pour sodium hyroxide into R and proudly told ethel that
the experiment was wrong.
placed the delievery tube the wrong way round.
used a wooden splint instead of litmus paper.
dear mrs leow glared at me.
xwy was crapping like anything today.
how lame can she get.
friday's doomed.
i havent got any present yet. i still dont know abt the outing.
i wasnt as exhilarated as i thought i wld be
maybe my love's drained away.
maybe i have seen too much.

i have finished reading the kite runner.
it moved me to tears.

i would love to run a kite for you too.
but i wouldnt .
because you wont be happy.
you would cry.

is hate an expression of love ?