Wednesday, April 12, 2006
my life has been a roller-coaster.
literally every day, im rushing to somewhere,
for some appointment,
to some other place in this world,
for the next lesson.
and its been paced too fast that i feel suffocated sometimes.
i know my friends ar troubled over some things,
but i dont know how to help or even talk to them abt it.
and i dont want to see that smile fade off tfrom their faces. so God, please let them smile. then i will smile too.
jocelyn's new nick is chop chop.
and she said im pork chop.
whatever.
she was begging me to go for guides dinner
but sorry my throat's bad and i have got a ton of books
to carry home.
sorry:(
how i wish i cld be like her, always smiling no matter what happens.
i havent even seen that fade off from her face at all.
sometimes i hope i cld be more honest abt things, but
there seems to be so much im hiding.
sheryl sim was being so sweet for the first time today.
we stepped down today.
and was telling everyone to not cry, whle i was tearing myself.
thanks for the hugs.
i will miss cracking lame jokes with zi ying,
teasing bimbotic huiping,
laughing at sheryl sim's crush.
i love them all still:)
today's the last day i got to mark the attendance bk . and i let jocelyn
mark them for me,
because i wouldnt let go of it .
i wasnt denying about that thing.
i just dont want to talk abt it.
