Tuesday, January 09, 2007

school's fine.
from the day i stepped through those gates, i
started to wonder if I am really
able to be after His heart still even when I clearly know and have proved that
superficiality reigns here.
I have proved that knowledge.
its not a belief.
but i know people who are really great here too.
This, I thank God.
Chapel on mon.
The reason i hang on there is just to start praising Him every morning
before my day starts.
There are so many challenges ahead.
Im still undecided on my cca and complete combi.

However, i really thank Him still.
Meanwhile, as much as i still delve on the past,
i want to move on.
so this is to peihua and ning.
please hang in there
Ph: please smile .

i met so many people and saw so much of reality.
some are myths but some are true.
but i can still tolerate the lectures for one thing.
I guess I know what I really want to achieve for these 2 years ahead.

the pain came back during lectures.
so you see, no matter how unhappy or dissatisfied with anything
or anyone, i still am thankful.
if you were me, you would understand.
I have to survive with this, not that i do have any option.
but to me, He isnt an option i summon at the last minute just to fill in that
blank space, rather, the only answer to my questions I have for life .

everyone's telling me they hate school so much.
But what's more pleasurable to end of a day at school well, knowing that you have
put that smile on His face?

Where's that irrepressible smile of yours?
Do you intend to erase it and let your life be a blank canvas?

I dont.